I wrote this on March 24, 2010. I was going through a great deal with my ex and Bassey Ikpi, with one simple statement, opened my eyes.
Two days or nights, however you want to say it, ago Bassey Ikpi wrote on her twitter, “Love someone and mean it. Unless loving them hurts you too much. Then love yourself and leave. Mean it and stay away.” I just stared at the tweet, and a tear cascaded down my cheek. She must be hacking into my mind because that is it. Those four short sentences spoke volumes to me. I read it and it shook my mind, sent chills through my body, calmed my heart, and freed my soul. “It isn’t your heart. Your heart protects you. It’s your mind telling you you’re not strong enough!” Is what Miss Ikpi said. Now this sent my mind on a whole other universe. This makes sense? Yes. Perfectly. I must strengthen my mind. Shit get it in a mental gym. Are you good for my sanity?! If not, then you aren’t what’s best for me and if you aren’t what’s best for ME, then you can no longer be apart of my thoughts. Bassey has sent me off on this mental journey that I never saw myself traveling to, and with time making it my permanent state. That state being, sane. The state of CHOOSING ME. Bassey Ikpi is, second to my mother because she’d kill me if she read this and she wasn’t first, my SHEro. She is a SURVIVOR in every way. She is BRILLIANT. She is AHHMAZING. She is the angel the universe sent my way. In my mind, she is my Friend, and I owe Miss Ikpi so much. From the depths of my soul, bottom of my heart, and the sane part of my mental, I. Thank. You.
[ruh-shair-shey]